I think most parents joke and tease with their kids about how much they are loved. Just this morning, Keegan told me she loved me and, like so many times before, I asked her how much. She threw her arms out as wide as she could and said, "This much!" I jokingly asked her little three year old self, "Is that all? That's not very much!" She took it in her usual good natured stride, scrunched up her nose, grinned and said, "Yep!" As the conversation moved on though, I thought more about what I said.
Last week I was feeling pretty overwhelmed. My list of wants to do around the house is getting longer, my list of fun and lessons I want to do with the girls is getting longer, my list of therapy activities to do with Johnny is getting longer (and longer and longer), and my time is feeling shorter. Without wanting to lose sight of the little things that are so important, time for snuggles, coloring, home cooked meals, errand trips together, time with friends, I wasn't sure how I was going to get it all together. And this isn't just last week, the lists (full of hopes and dreams of my ideal world) go on forever. I guess it only goes to graduation day for each kid. But from this view point, it seems like forever.
I'm not going to lie. I was pretty down about my post last week with Johnny needing help physically and showing more lags in his physical development. As much as I understand it, my heart still hurts for him. I'm a mother who wants the best for her child. I feel I have been patient and I feel that we work, it's hard to see a lack of progress. It can be discouraging in spite of all the wonderful and amazing things we see with Johnny in our lives.
Johnny is going to be evaluated for physical therapy in the coming weeks. I have such mixed emotions about this. On one hand I am grateful for the extra attention my boy is getting. He has needs, his needs are getting met. I have had a perfect experience with ECI so far and this is another example of it. I mentioned it to our OT, she said she was already thinking of submitting a request, and that's all it took. There was no fighting, no justifying, no begging, no pleading which is great. At minimum this would be two extra times that experts are coming in to work with us meeting our goals.
This past weekend, our small group got together to watch the Super Bowl and spend some time together as the "larger" group. We have had to split up into guys and girls because we are simply too prolific and keep having too many kids. There was little opportunity for Bible Study or accountability because we were always running around tending to the kids. So now we alternate Sundays for our split time. Occasionally, like Sunday, we all get together for something more fun.
I made two pinterest recipes to try out and I was fairly pleased with both of them.
The first were these brownies. They were definitely fudgey, but they were pulled out of the oven slightly before suggested time to keep them that way. They were very intensely chocolate and needed either a little less cocoa powder or some sort of salty aspect to balance them out. I also think that I would replace the chocolate chips for chocolate chunks next time. Would I make these again? Maybe. My sister in law who loves chocolate in all of it's intense glory would love these. But she probably wouldn't replace the chocolate chips for chunks, she would add both...
The second was S'Mores treats, which are similar to Rice Krispie Treats, but with Golden Grahams instead of Rice Krispies and the addition of chocolate chips. I used mini chocolate chips for this recipe. I thought these were good, they definitely tasted like a S'More and would be great for an outdoor activity or BBQ where you wanted a S'More, but didn't want the mess. That being said, I would rather have a Rice Krispie Treat. Especially this one...
I was excited to try two things off of Pinterest. There should be little "ribbons" you get for trying something you have Pinned. I would proudly bare these for the try!
There are many things I have learned on my journey through parenthood and being only a relatively short time in, I expect to learn a lot more. And as much as being mom to two beautiful and brilliant girls has taught me, being mommy to our sweet Johnny boy has taught me so much more.